2/15/2004 [altered]

I have accepted the result
of my tears and frustrations

I am here
sitting, waiting
for them to tell me,
to let me in on this secret

i no longer want,
no longer need,
no longer feel until

I can without the tears,
without the frustrations

that day is far off
i can't see it
but it will come

I will know myself again
I will care for something,
believe in something,
find strength in something

i will but until that day

I am.


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who can say if I've been changed for the better?
because I knew you, I have been changed for good.

spring awakening

[MORITZ]
Awful sweet to be a little butterfly
just winging over things
and nothing deep inside.
Nothing going going wild in you,
you know,
you're slowing by the riverside
or floating high and blue.
Or maybe cool
to be a little summer wind
like once through everything
and then away again.
With the taste of dust
in your mouth all day
but no need to know
like sadness
you just sail away.

Cause you know,
I don't do sadness
not even a little bit.
Just don't need it in my life
don't want any part of it.
I don't do sadness,
hey I've done my time
looking back on it all
man, it blows my mind,
I don't do sadness
so been there.
Don't do sadness
just don't care.

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[ILSE]
What are you looking for?

[MORITZ]
If only I knew.

[ILSE]
Then what's the use of looking?

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[ILSE]
Spring and summer ev’ry other day
Blue wind gets so sad
Blowin’ through the thick corn,
Through the bales of hay,
Through the open books on the grass
Spring and summer.

Sure, when it’s autumn
Wind always wants to
Creep up and haunt you
Whistlin’ it’s got you
With its heartache, with its sorrow
Winter wind sings and it cries.

Spring and summer ev’ry other day
Blue wind gets so pained
Blowin’ through the thick corn,
Through the bales of hay,
Through the sudden drift of the rain
Spring and summer.

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[MORITZ]
So maybe
I should be some kind of laundry line.
Hang their things on me
And I will swing 'em dry.
You're just wavin' the sun
Through the afternoon
And then see
They come to set you free
Beneath the rising moon.

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Cause you know,
I don't do sadness
Not even a little bit.
Just don't need it in my life
Don't want any part of it.
I don't do sadness,
Hey I've done my time
Looking back on it all
Man, it blows my mind.
I don't do sadness
So been there,
Don't do sadness
Just don't care.

Spring and summer ev’ry other day
Blue wind gets so lost
Blowin’ through the thick corn,
Through the bales of hay

Spring and summer ev’ry other day
Blue wind gets so lost
Blowin’ through the thick corn,
Through the bales of hay,
Through the wandering clouds of the dust
Spring and summer