the fear you won't fall

digging a hole
and the walls are caving in,
behind me

air's getting thin
but i'm trying, i'm breathing in
come find me

it hasn't felt like this before
it hasn't felt like home
before you

and i know it's easy to say
but it's harder to feel this way

and i miss you more than i should
than i thought i would
can't get my mind off of you

i know you're scared
that i'll soon be over it
that's part of it all
part of the beauty
of falling in love with you
is the fear you won't fall

it hasn't felt like this before
it hasn't felt like home
before you

and i know it's easy to say
but it's harder feel this way

and i miss you more than i should
than i thought i would
can't get my mind off of you

and i hate the phone
but i wished you'd call
thought being alone
was better than, was better than

and i know it's easy to say
but it's harder feel this way

and i miss you more than i should
than i thought i would
can't get my mind off of you

and i miss you more than i should
than i thought i could
can't get my mind off of you

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tomorrow night [or tonight] is a concert that i have been looking forward to for months. one of my favorite artists...and i completely forgot about it. so i will not be attending this very cheap concert in a very good venue, because when it rains, it pours.

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child you're a beauty.

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old sentiments from a five minute friend

"we mostly talked about how retarded girls are and how he wants one"

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invite me to your wedding because i think its gonna be one hell of a party.

[and]

all i want is to love and to be loved.
to hold. to kiss. to tell someone i love them.
i want to feel that if i die tomorrow, there is someone
that i will be willing to fight my way out of heaven for.
just to see their beautiful eyes, or hear their perfect voice
one more time. just once more...

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circa 2004

any given thursday

I fully support Rolling Stone's opinion that John Mayer is a living legend on the guitar.

[his voice doesn't suck, either]


Colbie Caillat:

partial setlist
The Little Things
Bubbly
Realize
Feelings Show
Battle
Tailor Made
Magic

John Mayer:

Belief
No Such Thing into Why Georgia
Waiting on the World to Change
Slow Dancing in a Burning Room
Free Falling
Bigger Than My Body
Mercy
Vultures
Heart of Life
Stitched Up
Crossroads
Gravity

encore
Bold As Love (solo)
Wind Cries Mary (solo)
Wheel (full band)
Say (full band)

04108

i close my eyes and see my home and thank God,
for He has allowed me to remember every rock.

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His perfect timing was a lifetime sooner than i would have hoped.

Had i known, i would have enjoyed a few more lobsters and ferry rides.

and wharf rats.

the fear you won't fall

To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket- safe, dark, motionless, airless--it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable.

[c.s.lewis]